I was unhealthy.
I had spent the better part of the last three years being pregnant or nursing and taking care of everyone but myself. I was that mom who couldn’t possibly find the time for herself, because being the best mom ever meant my kids got all of my attention.
I was unhappy.
I wasn’t confident in myself anymore, I was struggling to hold adult conversations (talking to toddlers all day can have this effect), and I was uncomfortable with the way I looked. I was the wife who thought cleaning the house, doing the dishes and folding laundry was how I proved my daily contribution to the family.
I was wrong.
I surprised my husband with a trip to Florida for his 30th birthday. I weaned my one year old just in time to go on this four night trip away, just the two of us. My body was in shambles. My mind was a mess. We enjoyed ourselves as we were away from the kids for the first time but I remember being so uncomfortable. I wanted to wear all my fancy clothes and dress up nicely but whenever I put on an outfit, I hated how I looked. It would take me another 8 months and 20 more pounds to realize I needed some help and accountability.
I’m happy to say I have, after months of hard work and self-focus, reached my ultimate goal weight. The number that taunted me because it seemed impossible to reach. My weight loss journey has been incredibly moving, life changing actually, mind altering. I’m happy to be strong again both physically but also mentally. I’ve become a person who is not only happy because I like the person in the mirror, but also because I’ve taken time to do some soul searching. I surprise myself all the time with how much I have changed.
My journey has always been less about weight loss and more about creating an identity for myself other than ‘mom’. Now don’t get me wrong – my greatest gift in life has been the opportunity to be a mom – but I want to show my little girl that the world is a place of endless possibilities. I want her to see me be successful, strong, independent and courageous. I want her to see the genuine smile that flies across my face every single day. I want her to see me love her daddy with my whole heart. I want her to hear me laugh from way deep inside. I want her to watch me ferociously chase my dreams.
Excuse the cliche, but what they say is true- only when you love yourself, can you truly love others. When you’re unhappy on the inside it projects on the outside, whether you mean it to or not. You don’t intend to be negative, it just comes out. In becoming the ME I wanted to be, I have relearned how to truly love myself and others.
I dare you to try it – No more dodging compliments. No body shaming. No negativity. No self-pity. No excuses.
When you put yourself first for just a little bit of your day, you start to change. You start to value yourself again, you start to shine.
Happy Valentine’s Day my friends!
Angela Green is a long-time blush client and local real estate agent juggling motherhood, marriage and motivating others to maintain a healthy lifestyle. Follow her inspiring self-love journey here and here!